My son is a few years younger than you. As the son of an expatriate American who is not poor he traveled to the US a lot as a child. He, like you, really planned on living there.

As he got older and started understanding fees, taxes, politics and policies a lot better, his desire to move to the US waned.

Now, like you, he can't really imagine moving there, even though the thought is still there.

I'd love it if the US progressed again like we did after WWII. The reversals of that progress since the late 70s (starting with money in politics leading to Reagan and the rest is history) has changed the country of my youth back to about what is was 100 years ago + plus 300 million guns and climate change. It is a beautiful county (still) with many wonderful people.

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